i love you san.
i've loved you from the moment i got to know you and i will love you as long as i am alive,with every beat of my heart.
zi cong ni lai dao wo de sheng ming li,hao duo shi dou hao xiang le guan le xu duo.
sui ran wo men you wo men jing chang qi zhen zi,dan shi wo men de ai shi yong heng bu bian de.
i've never loved anyone as much as i've loved you and you've made me realise what love truly is.
sui ran you shi wo de zhan you xin hui zuo guai,dan wo cong lai mei you huai yi guo ni dui wo de ai.
the reason i'm like that is because i'm scared to lose you again,im so afraid something bad is going to happen or someone is going to be better than me and take you away from me. and you know i get very insecure at times.
dan shi,wo xiang xin wo men de ai neng gou ao guo yi qie.er wo men liang zhong jiu neng gou yi qi guo wan zi bei zi.
you've been absolutely amazing. although you can be a little possessive at times (like me), but i know its because you don't want to lose me.
i want to thank you, for being my best friend, my lover, my confidante. for being there for me when i really needed you, for tolerating my moods and my terrible temper, for taking care of me, for caring for me, for loving me. i've never felt quite so loved before.
wo ai ni. wo ai ni duo guo yu zhe shi jie de ren he yi xie. duo guo ren he yi ge ren.
you are my first love, and you will definitely be my last.
wo yao he ni yong yuan zai yi qi.
i want to share your pain and your happiness.
i'm happy when you are happy and i'm sad when you are sad.
wo hen xu yao ni. er wo ye bu neng mei you ni.
so when i tell you, i love you more than life itself and i always will love you,
believe me.
i love you (."'.)
Sunday, April 30, 2006
so much happened.
we are not tgt animore.
but we are still sumhow tgt?
i dunno wad we are now.haiz.
i know i shld trust you again.my heart told me to.
so i told myself ta trust you one last time.
I LOVE YOU!
4/30/2006 12:25:00 am
i will never let you go;
Sunday, April 23, 2006
my teeth dat is growin at e back of my gum is killing me!!! argh!!!
its swollen and e pain is so unbearable!!! i cant eat!!! so ppl dun force me ta eat. :(
and how stoopid am i ta tot dat it was a ulcer ytd! >.<
im suffering in silent!!!
tml n tue hafin bio tests.
tink im gonna flunk it.oh well.i dun gif a damn.i haf study wad i cld.
tml topics are cell structures, biological molecules: lipids, proteins & carbohydrates, fluid mosiac model and enzymes!
tue's topics are enzymes,mitosis,meiosis and cell division!
i wonder how am i going ta pass.
argh!!! e pain is killin me!!!
dear faster hong wo!!!! :'(
today is our 600th day!!!
i love you baobei!! muack!! <3<3
4/23/2006 04:11:00 pm
i will never let you go;
wenta find dear today.
but she got angry i tink.dunno why.:(
so see her fer awhile den she went hme le.:(
afta dat i rot at hme and watch tv.
ard 6pm plus grace ask me acc her go cwp but her stuff.
so i agreed.called dor along too.
so she went ta eat and brought her laptop along too.
but ta me its not v gud.its apple.
althou it looks quite nice.but its so diff ta use larhs.
den grace spend quite alot and dor bought a shorts.i jex bought a anklet which i quite lyk! :)
hang ard at 77th street fer quite long coz dey are tryin e shirt and all.
den grace n e guy wanna go smoke.i dun wanna tag along but dey forced me to.so gotta go too.
dey stood at one side while me n dor at e other.
afta dey finish smokin,we went baq.
den wenta mac.grace tried using her laptop.but it cldnt connect afta so much attempt.so we gave up.and walked ta e interchange.
den she told us abt her experience on ***!!
omg!! abit amazed.:)
dear called.she's worried i tink.
sorry dear ta make you worry.:(
got hme at abt 11.50pm.
afta watchin kang xi lai le,called dear.
tok fer abt 20 min den she turned in.
today its our 600th day!! :)
so much things has happened during tis period of times.
things dat i din tot wld happen,it happened.
i haf been thru so much.
but now im stil trying v hard ta get you ta hang on wif me.so please dun gif up okie?
all i cld say here is dat, i haf not fell in love wif anione.and my love fer you has not decreased since we got tgt.instead it got stronger wif each passing days.
i love you dear.i know nth last forever.but can we make our r/s an exception?
sarang haeyo; aishitero; wo ai ni; i love you baobei!! <3
4/23/2006 01:30:00 am
i will never let you go;
Friday, April 21, 2006
just got back frm camp today.
oh well.on e whole e camp was quite okie.
and e good news are, RASALAS WON!!! and my class 0611C got second!!
we werent in e top 3 even until e 2nd day.so gettin second was really quite a shock fer us. :)
e campsite was a bit disgusting.
slpin in open air bunk wif no fan and so many lizards and flies.
when we got ta e bunk,there's even birdshit on e floor dat we are slpin on!
e toilet was v smelly! wonder how those ppl do their business.
e dining hall was oso horrible!! there's lizards on e wall everywhere!
plus e serving class dat served us lunch was kns!
they give us such little food that i rather dun eat.
all e activities were kinda fun.especially kayaking!
did abseiling,zipline,kayaking,nitro crossing,trolleys,nitro crossing.
din do any high elements coz was doing belaying fer my class peeps.
not many were able ta do belaying PROPERLY so angie and i took turn.
and also by that time im super tired already.
night time was horrible.so many lizards.
covered e slping bag over my head to prevent e lizards from falling to my head.
and in e middle of the night people frm e kaylong started singin karaoke.omg.
cldnt really slp on sucha hard floor.so im lack of slp.
as we gotta assembled at 5.45am for PT.
my back is hurting due to slpin on hard floor.
PT was abit mad.did alot of exercises.
kayaking was v fun!
but it was tiring too.
i like e water-confidence part,where we depend on our live-vest,the most.
where everyone jex relax ourselves in e sea and mr hamin started turning us rd and rd.
we felt v bonded tgt as it depend on each and everyone of us ta maintain dat circle.
camp-fire night!
our performance was kinda okie.
did my best ta perform wad i cld.
our class 0611C rocks!! and our cheer is superb!
and i shouted till my voice is changing.
but its all worth it.coz we won!!!!
rasalas and 0611C won!!! wee~ so happy! :)
was supposed to see you today.
but you said ure tired and wanna slp, so cldnt find you again.:(
you promised tml can see you.hope you wun bluff me.
during e camp,i missed you so much.
even when im doing my activities,i thought of you too.
i was thinking,"if accident happen and i die,wad will you do?"
all i wanna say if i die is that "no matter wad,i still love you dear."
4/21/2006 06:04:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
tml im goin fer camp.cumin back only on fri.
miss you dear <3
today tot dear was goin hme late.so i decided ta go fer e rasalas meetin which i had not intended ta go at all.
abt 5pm dear called n told me she went hme str8 afta skol n jex woke up!
abit angry coz actuali can go find her de.haiz.
went hme n told her wanna go find her but she dun wan.haiz.
b4 camp wanna see her oso cannot.haiz.
tink is bcoz i walked in e rain.abit feverish.
but i die die gotta go fer e camp.
sorry dear >.<
things seemed ta be so much better now.
and i hope it really is so.
hope im not tinkin too much.
these 3 days gonna be hard fer me.
cant hear her voice n see her.=(
i miss you darling.and,
I LOVE YOU <3
4/18/2006 09:08:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Sunday, April 16, 2006
why izit dat i expected e ans but when i saw wad u replied,my tears jex flow down on their own?
haiz.after so many things that i haf done.its stil lyk tis.wad else muz i do??
我的心好痛好痛.我要受不了了.我不知道我还能撑到什么时候.我好想现在就放弃.离开这个伤心地.放弃所有的一切.甚至是忘记你.但我知道我根本不能忘掉你.因为我太爱你了.ILOVEYOU*
4/16/2006 11:13:00 pm
i will never let you go;
things seemed to be gettin better.
but i dunno if its true anot.
i dun dare ta put too high hopes on it.haiz.
wenta find you ta pass u loren's prezzie.
bought ya fav fishball fer u.plus waflle hotdog & fried jackfruit.
u look so happy eatin e food.seein u eat makes me feel so happy too.
jex receive a msg frm u.
my heart is tearing right now.
im crying.and i doubt i will be able ta slp tonite.haiz.
you know i still love you as much as i used to.
and i hope you love me as much you used to.i know ure tryin.haiz.
my heart is tearing apart right now.
i love you.
4/16/2006 11:02:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Saturday, April 15, 2006
today went out wif dear!!!
she's super hot and cute!!!! <3
v happy!!!!
althou she did throw temper fer sumtimes but dats her!
if she dun throw temper den she's not my dear le!!
walk ard n bought loren's prezzie.
she bought a ripcurl jacket while i bought a ripcurl wallet!
finally got one dat i lyk.
oh yarhs.she has been eyein on dat jacket fer so long! so cute!!
afta she bought dat jacket she's super happy can.haha.so cute larhs!
we bought so many snacks today.
fishball,teriyaki chicken,gelatissimo ice cream,beerbuttered fish!! all are vvv nice!!!
den went baq ta admiralty ta cont huntin fer loren's prezzie.
6pm plus dear wan go hme.coz she's tired.so i sent her hme! she's v cute!!!
den wenta cwp find xhua.
walk ard n finally got sth fer loren's prezzie. =)
got hme n called dear.
she's super hardworkin.she go change sth fer e hamster and she mopped e floor on her own initiative! so cute!!
fang: im super happy fer u girl.seriously deep down frm within my heart.=)
dear: thx fer accing me e whole day.im v happy.hope we can go out soon again.i love you baobei.muack* <3<3
4/15/2006 09:29:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Friday, April 14, 2006
ytd was a horrible day was me.i shall not elaborate too much.
had a quarrel wif dear.and i cried till i vomit?im havin fever too.how terrible can things goes?
today went out wif e badmt peeps ta hunt fer jerseys.
saw a design but ah ber can only confirm wif us on mon.
coach can only confirm wif us on mon too.
how cum no one is concern dat tourny is cumin?and we gotta get e jersey done by lyk..nxt wk??
anw ate at pepper lunch.quite okie.but abit expensive.
den walk ard n went hme.
on e bus hme saw a accident.so many crowdin ard.typical sporeans.
and tis person sittin bside me kept leanin over.
make my convo wif dear so weird can.and she got pissed.
sorry dear >.<
i love you baobei.muack* <3<3
4/14/2006 10:49:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
jex finish my pi.haf been sittin infront of e com fer 7 hours.imagine dat.
but i finally finish my draft.kinda pleased wif myself.
wonder how did i squeezed all those things outta my brain.
haiz.haf a tok wif xinya at msn.
realised dat dat day u cried too.haiz.jex lyk how i sensed.
e sense i owaes haf b4 u even sae anitin.dats sth dat cannot be changed.
haiz.upon realisin dat.i cried.
why did i said those things to you?
why did i make you cried?
why did i throw my temper at you?
why did i do all these things which i always told myself that i shldnt do?
haiz.im sorry dear.:'(
din manage ta see you today coz you said u haf maths test tml.n wanna stay at hme n study.haiz.
you called n asked.so i taught u.hope u do understand wad im tryin ta bring across.
had a chat jex now.was kinda okie.i feel better now.
but at e same time.i stil e same.haiz.i dunno wad im feelin.
i only know that i love you.
4/11/2006 10:30:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Sunday, April 09, 2006
haiz.where exactly am i in ya heart?
haiz.e things we've been thru tgt cant even put me in e first place?haiz.
im truely disappointed now.and.im heart broken.
dun bother abt me anymore.its all pointless now.haiz.
4/09/2006 02:05:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Saturday, April 08, 2006
mornin was woken up by my sis at 6.55am!! so freakin early.
dragged myself up n packed my bag.den wenta meet e rest.
reached der n sat at tis chair.tink i din sit properly.e edge of e chair hurted my spine.and it started achin.haiz.
played at 10am wif jarkarta international sch.won my singles n 2 doubles.
den continued wif spore american sch.won my singles.
afta dat initially wanna leave.but e coach frm SAS wan us ta play wif e U16.so we haf no choice but ta stay.
we purposedly put e singles player ta play doubles n doubles player ta play singles.
my doubles was so bored.play until i wan fall aslp.
den wash up n wenta eat at its canteen.fried rice plus a meat cost $4.50! so ex!!
afta dat waited fer 912 fer so long.n wenta cwp.wenta find jerseys n discuss abt it.but stil no conclusion was made.
wenta find dear.
she got hong wo leh. <3<3
summore she helped me massage my injured back.so sweet!
tok awhile den she ask me go hme rest.
hope tml can see u again.muack! i love you!! <3<3
4/08/2006 07:58:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Friday, April 07, 2006
today is SZETING's birdthday!
meetin dem at 4pm plus ta celebrate sting's bday.
dey ate delifrance.i drank diabola passion fruit only.
afta dat walk ard n wait fer grace n mh.
when all arrived we ate e cake at jack's place.
as der were many ppl dey were reluctant ta sing.
so end up im e only one singin wif so many ppl lookin at me.
i noe im mad.im not in a gud mood.haiz.
den dey keep wantin ta take lotsa pics.so took fer dem.dey even forced me ta take wif dem.
finished takin n all den all of us left fer hme.
haiz.ure not in e mood again.haiz.
and i tot u wld leave sat fer me.haiz.but u din.=(
haiz.im scare tml.haiz.how i wish u wld be der fer me.haiz.
hope dat tml can see u.haiz.
you love me.and i love you.
we will be together forever.
time will prove that my love for you wont change.<3
4/07/2006 11:03:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Thursday, April 06, 2006
i tink im really v sick.
first e weather is freakin hot.but i feel damn cold.
was practically shiverin e whole day.
even had diarhorrea.
and bcoz of ytd pe.my stomach muscles are achin lyk mad.imagine doin 120+ of crunches.
today's pe ran tellytubbie hill again.its 2.4km.
and jex as i started runnin.i haf stitches.how wonderful.
and my nose started runny.had sucha hard time running.
kiddy palace called me ta go down.
got $25 fer catchin dat girl baq when i was stil workin.
kinda lame.but its money.bu na bai bu na.
geok msg me.
she told me nyp left only engineerin course.
so now she gotta appeal fer dat and wait fer another two wks.
haiz.i feel so sad fer her.she din do v badly but no skol wan her.
wads e world comin ta?haiz.=(
haiz.ure sick.fever too.jex lyk me.
haiz.my heart pain ta see u fall sick.
i cant takecare of u lyk how i used ta.coz of ya mom.haiz.
u gotta be guai and eat medicine kaes.and muz rest well.
i love you baobei.muack.<3
4/06/2006 09:50:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
haiz.im sick.but u dun care.haiz.
even though im sick.i stil gotta run 2.4km and play singles.haiz.
even thou i won.im not happy.haiz.coz i dunno if ure stil angry.haiz.i cant stop tinkin of u.wad u told me.it kept running thru my head.haiz.
finally u called.u din sae much when i told u i won.haiz.u told me u haf oral.haiz.ytd fever so forgot abt ya oral.sorry dear.u said it was stil okie.den u ask me go play.msg u when its over.
fever aint goin away.got hme.called u.u din picked up.awhile leta u called baq.
u said ure not angry at all.im not sure whether its true or ure jex tryin ta assure me.=(
pw is hopeless n clueless.i dunno wad ta do.
i asked u.u said u dunno.
but awhile leta u called n told me wad u tot of.so sweet larhs.
den u wenta slp le.
im feelin v weak.im lyk being drained off my energy.
only seein u can gif me e energy.haiz.
i love you dear.i really do. <3
4/05/2006 11:25:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
everything is a lie.everything is not true.
how tolerating haf i been?
who can accept ya stead ta owaes cancel date last min and dun bother abt u?
who can accept ya stead ta lyk other ppl and even can bring yaself ta forgive her?
haiz.i did dat.
but wad did i got in return?
nth.
jex neglect and 忽冷忽热.
im giving up.
really.im tired.
tired of being e only one gifin in and even tryin ta act happy infront of u when im not.
after i go u muz takecare of yourself.
dun skip meals.and muz study hard.dun sae difficult jiu dun study.
dun owaes throw temper.not everyone can tolerate ya temper de.
anitin u can find fang.i noe she can help you.she is a vvv gud fren.u can depend on her.
i love you.and i have never change heart before.my love for you has not decrease.but it has grew with each passing day.i never know love can be so strong.and i never knew that i will come to this extent whereby i cant live without you.now,i will bring everything with me.all e sufferings,tears,sorrows and even all e happy memories we had.我永远爱你宝贝.我不会忘记你的.我爱你.
4/04/2006 04:07:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Monday, April 03, 2006
today was horrible.
i cant concentrate at all.
was dozin off durin lectures n tutorials.haiz.
and der's so many hmewk! haiz.=(
pract was terrifyin.
so many ppl's margarine n butter caught sucha BIG fire!
and my uniform smells as if i jex smoke.
I DUN SMOKE OKIE!
trng was v tirin.
first we did 20 shuttles front nettin fer both sides.3 sets.
afta dat multi-shuttles 30 shuttles.6 SETS!
my legs were wobblin as i got out of e court.
and i almost landed on my knee fer e last shot!
afta dat did stroke drills wif joce n wq.10 min each.
e two of dem are complainin abt e drills again.
afta dat played singles wif joce n e dunno-wad-name guy.
lucky e auntie came.so we haf no physical.
wed hafin frenly wif cjc.
hope everitin will go jex fine.
my legs are achin now.
n my toe has blood-clot.
due ta my frequent bangin against my shoes.haiz.it hurts lyk mad.=(
fang: im happy fer u.at least he stil loves u! =)
san: i miss you lyk hell.muack! i love you dear.<3
4/03/2006 08:42:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Sunday, April 02, 2006
haiz.so many ppl shi lian.haiz.
im feelin v sad now.haiz.
e prob dat dey are goin thru now.
i haf went thru it b4.i can tell all of u dat its not ez overcomin all dat.
and im willin ta lend all who nid a listenin ear mine.
feel free ta tok ta me kaes.
kelvin:
hey.u gotta be strong okie.im sure she wil gif u a v gud ans by den.=)
xihua:
sumhow i feel dat we are in e same shoe.anyway we are of e same age.u can pour out everitin ta me.
fang:
u noe i support you girl.i shall gif u all my luck! =)
haiz.why are e campus superstar today singing all those songs?those songs dat accompanied me thru my tough times.those songs that make me shed my tears.haiz.i feel lyk cryin again.
i love you san.
4/02/2006 10:06:00 pm
i will never let you go;
Saturday, April 01, 2006
okie.im baq.and i shall try ta blog everyday.provided if i haf e time.
jc life is okie besides e studyin part.
so ppl if u wanna cum jc be prepared ta study.and of coz haf fun!
nowadays i see ppl breakin up.haiz.
it hurts ta see dem so.haiz.
coz i haf been thru all tis b4.
and i hope i wun hafta go thru dat one more time.coz its hell.haiz.
fang: even if ure my ear-candy.you can stil share ya prob wif me de.=))
SAN: you noe i love you dear.my love fer you wun change.time haf proven dat.<3
4/01/2006 08:30:00 pm
i will never let you go;
